Do you believe me as a victim if I still perform well? Does a good mood undermine all I've lost? Is happy, healthy, and traumatized allowed? Would you respect my triggers without knowing the gritty details? If I don't visibly cry and shake, could you still please not slam doors around me? Once I confide my assault, is the rest of me painted over? If two things can be true, which holds more weight? Can my abuser be held accountable without it ruining my own life? Can my abuser not be held accountable without it ruining my own life?